bloody shit.. i cant sleep!

as i've mentioned.. we were chilling out at an open space pub at dempsey road.. enjoying the breeze.. my baileys.. and the silence at nite.. the manager said this excitedly..

"sorry huh.. to all contract staffs.. but i heard this year our company's bonus will be ard 4.5 months.. our big boss approved le.. will be credited into our accounts one of these days.."

Bloody shit.. i'm not scolding anybody.. but reali i reali reali feel the pinch in my heart now~~~~~ can u imagine... lets say minimum if i earn 2k per month.. how much will tat be~~ 8k leh!!!!! wakaozzzzzz... tats only taking the minimum one earns lor.. almost can settle my whole year's school fees and no more struggling leh.. bloody hell.. once again i am gg to see everyone becoming "bee tang".. while i am struggling like shit. dun even get half month bonus at all.. cos contract staff only gets their AWS at end of contract.. i.e. Apr for me la.. sigh.. i really feel like crying man... gosh... 4.5monthzzzzzz leh! can anyone let me feel a little bit more balanced?