self-reflecting..

Lately, I've been spending money... on angbaos, house warming gift and bdae gifts. The largest amt I spent is of couse my school fees lah.. i.e. 4.8k. Payday was just 5 days ago, and I'm feeling poor? Haha.. a few bad debts that I couldn't collect indirectly contributed too.. I nv like talking abt money, but now I hv to think and think on the amt of blessings I give to my dear friends, I hv to go after people to get back money even if I know they are tied up. I can't help repeating myself 1000 times to everyone I know, sorry I'm poor. Colleagues all see me as Stingy & Poor Suki. A tiny amt of $30 for a house warming gift, my colleague hv to awkwardly tell me "Suki, it's ok, pay me at your own convenience." Yea~ Thks I appreciate that alot, but I still have my pride and will pay you immediately irregardless what, ok.

Look, nah this is not my room, is my col's. Nice table ya? That's the house warming gift I was talking about, $190 from IKEA. :) I always reflect on myself when I look at my colleagues. At the age of 25, got married with a flat completely renovated with air-con and new furniture, is mission impossible to me. Today, I heard about another "Superman" of our office. Aged 25, married, with a kid and an unemployed wife who is still studying, and he himself going into a part time degree next month, driving a Mazda, and staying in their own new flat. I wonder how is it possible to achieve at all at one time??? Even if I am not studying, I also dun think it's possible.